The Brown Box

Went through my old notes from a brown box I carefully tucked in my room. I had it since fourth year high school and almost 8 years after, I found it and had enough time going through those dusty notes, stuff toys and other memorabilia. Opening this box spawns lots of colorful and painful memories that taught me a lot of things. I became a student of life and the experiences I had were carefully documented and hidden in this box. Looking at a few poem compositions, it made me smile. I wrote this poem on December 20, 2004 and I really don't or maybe I lost track of time that I forgot to whom this was for or perhaps I just loved to write something about it. So here's just some of the poem that I've written. This one's quite an emo-ish! :D

I Love Him (But I'm Just A Friend)

I can feel my heart beats faster;

Whenever I hear his name.

I looked for him everywhere;

When I can't find him myself I blame.

I've fallen so inquisitive;

Although I need a lot of help.

I have fallen in - love so deeply,

I can't concentrate thinking of him constantly.

From all the feelings I hide,

I can't let them out of my heart.

For I fear that he might go away,

It would make me go crazy.

With all my heart I care for him,

But our chances are so dim.

I love him and I just can't pretend,

But to him.. I am just a friend.

I  may have altered a few stanzas to perfectly fit the emotion per line and with its rhyme as well. I loved how at the age of 15 I got acquainted with poetry. I hope to awaken this poetic heart. I just need time and enough inspiration to do it someday soon.. ♥ =)