“And why are YOU still single?”

Yeah, that question! 
Sometimes when I hear it, it's either I'll be pissed off or just laugh at how stupid that certain someone is. Recently, just this summer someone popped that question. Now this is the scenario.
Summer is my season. Summer time means reorganizing my life, general cleaning, traveling, beaches, review, plans for improvement and doing lots of adventures. C'est la vie as they say it! What struck me today was a conversation I had with a friend in pre-school. He asked me if why didn't I have a boyfriend at this age, why I am still single or haven't settled down yet. He was so baffled to find out that I AM STILL SINGLE. The usual reaction would be me being pissed off, but sorry to say this, it's because I am not at all pissed. Haha! I just laugh it out loud. I thought, does society really wants us to follow a specific line of events? That at this age we should be with someone, get married, have kids? Blah! Blah! College.Internship.Job.Married.Babies. I don't wanna fall into this layout that society has planned out for me just yet. What I wanna do first is to lust after life with a courageous soul and an adventurous heart before I even decide to have a boyfriend or perhaps to tie the knot. I want to enjoy my being an individual first and do things on my own rules before I am ready to be in a serious relationship. I mean, hello! This is my choice. This is my life. Can I not love myself first before being ready to commit to someone who truly loves me too in return? This isn't a race my friend. I am not in a hurry and I am so happy being like this, seriously & honestly. I don't want to force myself just because society tells me so. Sure, some of my family members, close friends & suitors have asked me the same question which before it had quite pressured me a lot. But I say, only time can tell when I am ready and everything is ironed out well accordingly to God's plans and my family's blessings. While I think that loving someone else is a necessity in life, I think that we need to love ourselves before we can even consider to love anything or anyone else in our lives. I am going to embrace being me and love every single second of it. I am going to love my emotional state of mind, my soccer thighs, my quirky way of sleeping, my hate for pineapples and my inability to whistle. I am gonna soak up every little inch of myself, appreciate who I am and love it! I am at peace with my relationship status and so leave me be. 



For now, I want to be like this because I don't settle for a question mark relationship just because I am pressured of what society dictates. I wanna hold out for an exclamation point relationship where I am certain that I can have the best future with that right person with playfulness and bliss to incandescent love. I just need to decide which piece I feel the safest holding when I fall. I think I may have found the piece I was looking for. Someone who invades my thoughts at times and makes me smile all of a sudden like crazy. Just the mere thought of that someone creates a tidal riot of butterflies in the pit of my stomach, but in a good way of course. Someone who scares me, challenges me and still makes me happier than I’ve ever been. But I'll just have to enjoy the feeling of being in-love and see to it if this feeling will last up to the moment when I'll be ready for a relationship. Things & people change, we can never be certain of what the future holds. These feelings might change per se or maybe not. Indeed, only time can tell. ♥ :)

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